LIVING WITH REGRET
What is your biggest regret in life?
This came up for me recently as I was walking the dog through the fields. I could feel the tears welling up in my eyes.
I had watched a wonderful movie called "About Time" with Bill Nighy (if you haven't seen it, I would recommend it). It triggered something from my past. The main character is a man called Tim and he learns he can time travel and go back and undo all the awkward moments and the things that he regretted in his life, so that he can live the life he truly wishes to live.
Fabulous, don't you agree?
It just reminded me of Matrix Reimprinting and the Akashic work, where we get to access the memories where trauma is stored and change the story. Move negative beliefs into positive ones. Change our stories of where we are going in our lives, create the life you wish to create. The one part of the script that struck me was when he said,
"The truth is I now don't travel back at all, not even for the day. I just try to live every day as if I've deliberately come back to this one day, to enjoy it, as if it was the full final day of my extraordinary, ordinary life".
Wow, powerful words. A reminder to us all that we need to live in the present. Yes, he had his opportunities to step into the past and undo some of the mistakes that he made until he got to a point in his life that he was happy in this moment, enjoying this moment. This is such the healing journey. it takes time and maybe a few errors along the way but you don't have to be defined by the past. You can step back and you can heal them until you get to a point where life is where you want it to be, on your terms.
The trigger that I needed to heal was regarding one person. I wanted to share this, as it felt that a lot of you may be experiencing this situation also.
This person I met in my early 20's and was to be my partner for life (or so I thought). He opened up a world of adventure and excitement for me.
I had grown up very protected in a loving environment that felt safe with my mother and father. The world was a little bit scary and along came this shy, bashful young man. He was very attractive but not particularly confident around females. A mirror reflection of who I was. I was very shy and particularly awkward around men and attractive men who were drawn to me. I pushed people away as I was scared of what might happen. I was scared of having feelings for another person other than my own family. It felt like a betrayal. But he wanted to experience life and do things I had never done; life experiences that I had never ever thought to do and travel the world.
Anyway, with the intervention of a few work colleagues, we ended up dating and, if you have read my book, you will know who I am referring to. We ended up in a 10 year relationship and we did marry only to get divorced 6 months later. It opened my eyes to a wonderful life experience beyond anything I could have imagined.
Although there were lots of wonderful times, there were many things that weren't right with the relationship. Many things that I had to work through using Matrix Reimprinting and then in the Akashic Records, that has instilled negative emotional beliefs and programs.
What did I regret? I realised that there were moments that could have been handled differently. Regrets over things that had not been said and the fact that there was not really any closure in this relationship. Our connection stopped by a phone call; due to the fact that I was in a relationship with someone else who didn't like our connection. Even though he lived five thousand miles away, there was an energetic cord connecting us.
We were definitely a soul contract relationship. I knew this from the time that we met, although I wasn't aware at the time. I stepped into the Akashic's and released the regrets that I held, the things I never got to say and then I released the energetic cord that had kept us connected. You could call it a doorway that had never been shut, connecting both of us. My throat energy was intense and the connection was our communication (or perhaps the unsaid words and emotions).
A time for closure. I feel that many of you will be experiencing this closure energy. Things, people and situations popping up. Saying goodbye to the past now ready for the new energies and ways of living that awaits you. I wrote a letter of gratitude and then released it and with it I cut the energetic cord within the Akashic Records. I shut the door on the past.
The Full Blue Moon is shortly upon us on 21st July and this is a wonderful time to release the past and step into a new beginning. What is the Moon showing you this month that you need closure on or to release?
Join me on the Full Moon Ceremony, if you feel drawn to experience a realignment of the chakras, as you receive Light Language sounds and tones to cleanse and heal each energy centre. We then go on a guided meditation to release the past with the magical Merlin and Archangel Michael.
For event details, pop over to the event page to book tickets:
If you would like to learn more about the Akashic Records and you feel this is something that you would like to have in your tool box to help others or, to facilitate your own healing. I am running a FREE Master Class introducing Soul Healing in the Akashic Records. The Full Practitioner Course will be in September.
You will need to book your place on the events page of the website. Please use the same link as above.
Sending you all much love and healing at this powerful time of change.
Love and Light
Lorraine xx
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